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Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Bad Mother Award

Okay, today I could receive the bad mother award. I forgot Lucy's orthodontist appointment. I could give you all my excuses and I am but the fact remains that I forgot to pick her up from school for her appointment. I worked late yesterday and I went to a going away party for me and two other nurses and Tim let me sleep in this morning. Tim drove carpool for me so I could sleep. I am in transition in my job situation and so my mind doesn't feel very clear. As I said, I forgot her appointment completely. I had to reschedule after Lucy called me from school and asked where I was, that she was waiting for me to pick her up. Bad mom.

Friday, January 26, 2007

Being Myself

My friend, Jen Lemen, blogged recently about her self that she has kept hidden and she made me start thinking. What parts of yourself have kept hidden? I know there are those verses of scripture that talk about the parts that should be hidden but I don't think this is about what should be is about those things that we have hidden and shouldn't. Did I lose you in my circular reasoning? Sorry...
The girl that I have hidden can be very silly, likes to wear her hair in braids, loves her bicycle, will sing loudly with just about any song, likes to decorate a little over the top, enjoys cutting and pasting, loves to paint with watercolors, could spend a whole day in the art gallery, can read a novel in an afternoon, can't get enough of the outdoors...hiking and gardening or just looking at the amazing world, loves to write late at night, could sing to a baby all night, thinks that skipping is the most fun way to move from one place to another, loves to write on the walls, could also sing praise songs and hymns until she has no voice left....
I think you get it....
Tell me about the girl or boy that you have kept hidden.

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

I've Been Cheated

I worked Monday and Tuesday and feel so convicted that I am moving to a new job at just the right time. Yesterday was long and hard. I started at 7 and got home at 10:30. It was busy and nothing went right all day. I love birth but I want to be able to give quality care to my patients. That is not what happened yesterday. I felt like I had been cheated and maybe my patients felt the same way.

This morning is Cassidy's birthday. She is Lucy's friend in our carpool. Her mom brought us all Dora the Explorer hats and leis and noisemakers to celebrate her birthday. We picked her up last and surprised her when she got in the car. It was fun to see her face.

I am loving getting email from my mom. She is just beginning to get the hand of email...maybe soon she will figure out how to comment on my blog. So fun.

Friday, January 19, 2007

Sunshine and New Job

It has been raining or snowing or just cloudy for so many days now that I am so ready to see the sun. I know, I know, we need the rain but I just need a little bit of sun.

I now have a new job. I will start on Feb.5th working in the student medical clinic at ACU. I will miss birth but I think that a change is in order.

Wednesday, January 17, 2007


Just watched a video on the Washington Post website that was a message from Barak Obama. He is forming a committee to think about running for the presidency. His words were moving and calm. It was brief and to the point. I love that he said the issue is not the magnitude of our problems but the smallness of our politics. He is right.

A couple of weeks ago at church we had a small class where we took the Sunday paper and looked through it as a group and chose some specific articles and prayed about what was written there. We were practicing putting the presence of God in the here and now. I know, God is already there but we need to acknowledge that and practice being aware of that presence. I had chosen an article about politics and the war. I am guilty of immediately putting my own political slant into anything written or said about politics. I had to step back and put God back into that situation. Hard for me to do. Is it hard for you?

Did you like the song? I keep listening to it and have now starting singing along with them. I find Rose and Rose addicting.
These are the two women singing the song. Check out their sites. Their names are Rose Polenzani and Rose Cousins. They record separately.

Monday, January 15, 2007

The Book of Love with Rose and Rose

Sunday, January 14, 2007

The Book of Love

These are the lyrics to The Book of Love by Magnetic Fields

The book of love is long and boring No one can lift the damn thing
It's full of charts and facts and figures and instructions for dancing
but I I love it when you read to me and you you can read me anything
The book of love has music in it In fact that's where music comes from
Some of it is just transcendental Some of it is just really dumb but I
I love it when you sing to me and you you can sing me anything
The book of love is long and boring and written very long ago
It's full of flowers and heart-shaped boxes and things we're all
too young to know but I I love it when you give me things and you
you ought to give me wedding rings I I love it when you give me things
and you you ought to give me wedding rings

I love this song!

I thought that the YouTube would be up before my post but it's, wait and you can hear this song being sung. You will love least I do.

Thursday, January 11, 2007


Here is beautiful Ava! Thought you might like to see her. I am in love.

Monday, January 08, 2007


I have been bothered lately about something that could seem concrete but actually seems kind of vague to me. What do we define as sacred? I think that we have allowed too much to creep into our sacred spaces. Sacred spaces like....a conversation with a friend, birth, death, dinner, worship, the living room, our bedrooms, our cars, the grocery store...I know, I know, you are thinking that not all of those places are sacred but I beg to differ.
Technology has crept into those spaces...all those spaces used to be places where we interacted with each other but now they are filled with television or our cell phones or the computer or ipods or a dvd player. I am a labor and delivery nurse and people leave the tv on while they are giving birth. How can you fully experience the birth of that child while watching tv? Someone is dying and the family is gathered around the bed. What would be good and healthy is conversation to the dying and to each other, possibly a song or a prayer or some silence, tears shed and hands held, heads on shoulders, and knowing looks across the room but lately I have watched, cell phones ringing. Cell phones ring during worship. Computers draw our attention away from our family in our homes. TVs in our bedrooms distract.
Some of the best conversation with my children happened in the car but I now see so many people with their children in the car and they are talking on their cell phone. I loved grocery shopping with my children. We talked through the whole store...about food, about people, about what we were going to do the rest of the day or the next week. Now I see moms walking through the store with their children in the grocery cart and they are talking on their cell phone.
I believe that all these are sacred places and sacred time with our families.
How can we change this?

Saturday, January 06, 2007

Nancy Pelosi

The first woman Speaker of the House. I have only ever heard Mr. Speaker. How cool to finally hear Madame Speaker! We watched the shift of power and I was duly impressed. I loved that she had all the children in the chamber that day come down and touch the gavel. Her grandchildren had requested to touch the gavel and since they requested, she thought that all the children would love to touch it. What an incredible memory for all those children. She carried her self with poise and dignity. She thanked her family for encouraging her to move from the kitchen to the House. I love it when families encourage their members to use their gifts.
Do you think there is someone in your family who should run for office?

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Happy Birthday Teresa Pecinovsky

Tonight we celebrated Teresa's birthday with her and her friends. She has so much energy and always makes everyone else have fun. She has been living in Japan and it has been fun to keep up with her adventures. She brought us presents from Japan...Harry Potter in Japanese, a Japanese magazine, ACU gum from Japan and Japanese candy for men but Teresa told me that I could eat the candy also. For her birthday tonight we burned sparklers and sang happy birthday and ate cake.

I am reading another book titled The Coffin Quilt by Ann Rinaldi. It is historical fiction for young teens about the Hatfield and McCoy feud. We know some real McCoys, so it makes it even more interesting to me. I know that when I finish this book I will research this feud a little more. Do you know any real Hatfields or McCoys?

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

The Inbetween Time

I am living in that inbetween time right now. Christmas is over. New Year's is over. School hasn't started back yet. Everyone is hanging out at home. We need to take the Christmas decorations down. We need to clean house. We need to reorganize. I really don't think that all of this will be done until everyone goes back to their normal lives.

Christmas was wonderful. So good to be with all my children and Ava. Ava is so precious...sweet, easy-going, beautiful, full of life and so very entertaining. Her favorite words right now are uh-oh. So fun.
Time at my mom's house was relaxing and fattening. She made us a amazing breakfast and dinner every day. Seeing my brother, Jeff, and his family was fun. Thanks, Paige, for decorating the tree with dinosaurs.
Getting to spend one day with Ann and her kids, Sue and Dennis, Laurel and her kids, and Peggy, Evelyn and Emily was the perfect ending to a great trip.

I just finished reading a book, The Glass Castle, by Jeanette Walls. I bought it in the airport after my flight was cancelled and I knew I was going to be trying to fly on standby. Great book. I wish that my old book club in Maryland had read it and discussed it. I am sure that Elizabeth would have made some of the same comments that she made about the mother in Angela's Ashes. This book is the American version of Angela's Ashes. There are parts of this book that are heartbreakingly sad but there is so much truth and honesty in this book that it is worth the sadness.

I just started reading a book that was given to me by sweet Katie and already there is something in this book that I want to share with you. The book is titled Into The Tangle of Friendship and is written by Beth Kephart.

"In the theater of family hang the scintillas of friends. I learned young that all families are porous, osmotic, forever redefined and shifted by the friends we bring home, the stories they tell, the residues and mysteries they leave behind. Kelly was my friend, but she was also, indisputably, part of my family-part of the questions my mother, father, brother, sister asked, part of the plans we made, part of our compromising, our negotiating, our blood work, part of our dinner table, our laughter, our encouragement, our praise. Denise, too, was a link in the family chain: we all knew and embraced her, we all were changed by having known her; she was fixed in family memory and lore long after the friendship was over.
My mother's friends were so woven into the rest of us that we gave them family names: Aunt Carol, Aunt Loretta, Aunt Joan. Our house was their house, and their homes were ours, and I was eager, always, to see them, to impart my latest adventure, to find out about theirs. My family would leave town for a while and then come trundling back, and my mother's friends were always there, a circle of safety, a beguiling continuance. I knew their birthdays and sighs, I knew their laughter, their favorite candies, I knew enough about them to imagine both halves of the phone talk I'd hear my mother having when I'd slip, like a secret, into the stairwell at night. At nine, I believed my life would replicate my mother's, that I would collect, like living prayers and trophies, these steadfast familial souls whom my children would call Aunt and whose homes would be mine and whom I could love with unawavering abandon.
But for me, at least, such a feat would not come easily. For me, the desire for endless friendship far outweighed my apparent talent for it."

I believe that I have collected my own living prayers and trophies.
In childhood I was slightly afraid of the friends I accumulated.
In high school I made many friends but only one during that uncertain school experience that I would have called a lasting friend...Mary Shubatt...freckled and sweet...she was precise and organized and she loved my quirkiness and cherished my silliness...and she knew that when you went around the corner in my dad's car and you were in the passenger seat that you had to hang onto the door or it would fly open..and you better have your seatbelt on.
Camp WaMaVa provided many amazing friendships for me. I can't even begin to name them...for fear that I would leave someone out.
College gave me some forever friends...roommates and soulmates.
But it is those friend that have helped me raise my children that I feel such a strong kinship with...Pixie McCall, my friend since I was 11 and more like a big sister than a friend...Jane Edson, she allowed me to relax....Donna Hanner, so kind and warm and hospitable....Adie Johnson, my next door neighbor who became my sister....Tammy Selby, so much time together at camp with our little children and pondering life and parenting....Ann Evankovich, my now friend who allows me to be myself and allows to talk about everything without condemnation or criticism.
I don't know where I would be without these living prayers and trophies in my life.

Tell me about your living prayers and trophies.