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Monday, August 09, 2010

Transitions.... Too Many

I do know that some transitions just come as part of life but this summer I feel overwhelmed with them. ACU has a new president. Highland has a new preacher. Both of my daughters will be seniors this in high school and one in college. The Halsteads and the Gibsons just to Nashville and the other to Boston.
Can I just say that I am not one who usually fights change but right now I want to. I loved having Royce Money as the president of ACU. I loved having Mike Cope as the one who directed my spiritual thoughts every Sunday morning. I love having my children close by. And I loved having the Halsteads and the Gibsons as close friends....close in heart but also close in distance.
I am not saying that our new president or our new preacher will not be amazing...I am counting on that. I am not saying that I don't want my children to grow up....I do and I am oh so proud of them. And I am not saying that the Halsteads and the Gibsons should have stayed in Abilene...they are beginning a new part of their journeys and I am thrilled for them.
I am saying that I feel a little as if the rug has been pulled out from under me and I have to again decide who I am and where I stand and adjust to new career leadership and new spiritual leadership....adjust how I parent.....adjust who I hang out with. I am not saying that is bad but sometimes introspection mades me see things about myself that are not pretty and that is not comfortable.
I have been grouchy all weekend....for lots of reasons....these included. I think that I am in for a bumpy ride these next few months....the outcome is usually good but the ride itself can be ugly.